Fake people

Fake people. Everyone despises them, right? They are lying back stabbing cheats. The kind of people we don't associate ourselves with and definitely the kind of people we would never be. We are honest people true to ourselves and not pretending to be anyone else, aren't we.

That's what I've always thought anyway since secondary school introduced me to the social hierarchy with different groups of people. The things we don't like are the lies and the unreliability of who they really are. After wondering about this for a while it really made me think about myself. I came to the conclusion that I am a fake person.

I don't act like myself, I lie and I'll say one thing to one person and a completely different thing to another. However none of these actions end up hurting anybody else and they are not intended to. I'm not attacking, I'm defending. I'm protecting myself and others. I'm protecting myself from judgement and rejection and others from burdening them with my negative feelings. I'm pretending to be the person people want me to be because I'm not being that, then I'm being the person people don't want me to be. I need to act like I'm happy and chilled. I need to laugh at jokes, get excited about things 'I should be excited about' and I need to enjoy things 'I should enjoy'. I need to be smiley and sociable and I need to look like I'm coping. That's what people expect and honestly I'm too afraid to be anything else, expect those times when I'm not even able to fake it which seem to be becoming more frequent

Really its a lot healthier not to fake it. It's like walking on a broken leg. It makes it so much worse. We need to learn to limp. To show others that something is wrong and we are needing some extra help whether that's just on a bad day or for a while, it depends how bad the break is. However bad the break is you deserve help and support and what I'm really trying to get at ACCEPTANCE. 

It is scary to take off the mask and drop the act in front of everyone but try at least your close friends and family, a diary or even a blog ;) because faking is exhausting and incredibly difficult to keep up.

Society makes us feel stuck. Fakers are hated but 100% honestly is followed by 100% judgement. What do you do? I say do what is best for you and your life. Even though I don't want to admit it, opening up to people is your best bet at long term contentment. Find someone you can be you around and do just that...be you, no faking because if you fake for too long you lose sight of how you really are and that's something you just don't want to lose.

Hopefully I organised my crazy thoughts to make some can of sense and to have some kind of meaning to you. Thank you for reading.

Lots of Love,

Becca xx

What I got for Christmas #2 Jewellery

Hi, I hope you are well:)

I got some really pretty jewellery that I wanted to share with you...

So I have seem to have a little obsession with rings and this has not gone unnoticed by my family. All together I got three sets of rings all from Dorothy Perkins.

The 4 set on the left are two gold, 1 silver and 1 bronze thin textured rings. They are good for if you want to wear more subtle jewellery or if you want to wear multiple rings. 

The bigger gold ring with a lilac stone has to be my favourite. I just think it is so pretty.

The ones on the right are a 3 set. They have a dark metal band with pearl and diamond decoration. They are a little bit more 'cool' instead of 'pretty' if you know what I mean.

I also got some earings

I got 4 sets of bird shaped stud earrings. I think they are really cool and different.

That is all for today. Thank you for reading.

Lots of love,

Becca x

What I got for Christmas #1 Bath things

Hello! 

I hope you're well and going back to school or work or whatever you do wasn't too traumatic for you! As you can see I have finished redoing my blog. Everything is all sorted and snazzy.

I wanted to show you a few photos of things I got for Christmas this year as I think they might interest you and may give you some ideas of what to buy with your Christmas money. Yes, I realise this is a little late as currently it has just turned 16 days since Christmas. But better late than never right?

Over Christmas I received a selection of Zoella/Zoe Sugg products which were the guinea pig makeup bag, the creamy madly dreamy body lotion, the soak opera bath soak and shower cream and her book 'Girl Online' (obviously this is an expection to the bath things theme as its a book...unless you read in the bath...I just photographed all the Zoella products at the time as I hadn't decided how to organise the posts at the time)

I got 3 Soap and Glory products: the Breakfast Scrub, Rich and Foamous Body wash and the Glad Hair Day Shampoo

These are the Sanctuary Spa warming sugar polish and a Mandara Spa mini trio including a scrub, a body butter and a hand cream

This was one of my stocking fillers. It's a creamy candy bubble bar and you can see I have already had a cheeky bath with it

So that's all I got bath product wise. These are the kind of things people know I enjoy and is a pretty easy thing to get me...or I just smell...I'll leave you with that thought...

Lots of Love

Becca x

I NEED TO DO THINGS!

Hey..hi..yeah you haven't heard from me in a while..

This isn't nice flashy put together post. This is me needing to say a few things concerning my little internet place.

1. I'm sorry! I'm sorry I've been rejecting you my pretty little blog! But I promise to give you lots of TLC and attention this year and really make this a better and much less deserted place.

2. Bysiebye Beccsie Belle...yeah that's going. I feel my blog is a bit too cheesy and cringy and me trying but failing to be funny and clever. The name Beccsie Belle is going. What it is going to change to I haven't quite yet decided.

3. This means my URL is gonna change too just fyi.

4. Redecorating! I'm planning on updating up the layout and everything a little to go with my new name and dedication to the blog and all.

In summary, things are changing! Hopefully for the better and everything will improve. I should have everything sorted by the end of the week all set for regular posting. I'm setting myself the target of blogging weekly at least so I should have 52 posts published this year. This time next year we'll see if I achieved that!

Okay, I'll see you in my next post on a much nicer and fancier blogging space...hopefully:)

Lots of Love,

Becca xx